I´ve been caught up in a big, booming wave of my own emotions for a while now. And it was a painful time for me; I was so close to drowning. I was swirling around in utter black darkness, fully confused about the meaning of all these things. I like to believe that everything happens for a reason, and I just couldn’t figure out for what reasons this Incident happened to me. I just couldnt get a hold of why it happened to me out of all people.
And I prayed to god to tell me why it happened to me, and I also thanked him. Although I was broken, I thanked him. I thanked him in advance for the pain. Because I knew that I would get over it -him- eventually. Just not yet, but I knew I would. And I knew that I would learn a lot from this experience. That was five weeks ago. I´ve grown up so much in these days after The Incident. And I got the answer to my question: Why me? It happened to me because I felt overly confident, I thought only about myself, how I was worthy enough for someone like him, I was being selfish. I jumped into the water without thinking about its depth and my non-existant swimming skills.
And after all this time, the bubbling water took me in as one of its own. And I learned to swim with the creatures I once feared, and they helped me get back to the shore. And now I am back, but I know how to swim. Yes, I have wrinkly skin and wounds from my struggle, but thats nothing a swab of cream can’t cure. 😉
I´m back with alot of experiences that I would like to share with you, and through out this whole dramatic experience, I figured out how to take care of myself, and what works for me,and how to use what I got to look decent enough for my judgemental self to shut up. So just comment down below what you want to know or read, because this is a new start and I need some help here. ((And like always,I would enjoy some feedback from my loyal readers.I rarely get any))
all the love